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<\/p>\nY\u0131l 2012. \u015e\u0131rnak Uludere\u2019ye T\u00fcrk\u00e7e \u00d6\u011fretmeni olarak atand\u0131\u011f\u0131m haberine al\u0131\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m, valizime sevincime kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k teredd\u00fctlerimi kat\u0131p yollara d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm bir eyl\u00fcl sabah\u0131. \u0130lk g\u00f6reve ba\u015flayan her \u00f6\u011fretmenin duydu\u011fu o nesiller yeti\u015ftirme heyecan\u0131. Kulaklar\u0131mda, \u00f6\u011fretmen lisesinde en derin hislerimle ba\u011f\u0131ra ba\u011f\u0131ra s\u00f6yledi\u011fim \u00d6\u011fretmen And\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Uzun ve yorucu yolculu\u011fun ard\u0131ndan geni\u015f bah\u00e7eli bir okul kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda buldum kendimi. Bah\u00e7ede ko\u015fu\u015fturan \u00e7ocuklar, Atat\u00fcrk b\u00fcst\u00fc yan\u0131nda dalgalanan T\u00fcrk bayra\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7imi \u0131s\u0131tt\u0131. Bah\u00e7eye ad\u0131m\u0131m\u0131 atar atmaz usulca yan\u0131ma bir \u00e7ocuk yana\u015ft\u0131. Arkada\u015flar\u0131 oynarken o kenarda oturuyordu. Kara kuru, \u00e7elimsiz, bembeyaz y\u00fczl\u00fc bir k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu. \u201c\u00d6rtmen misin sen?\u201d \u201cEvet, ad\u0131n ne senin?\u201d \u201cG\u00fcl.. G\u00fclistan benim ad\u0131m. Annemin ad\u0131.\u201d G\u00f6zleri hem g\u00fcl\u00fcyor hem a\u011fl\u0131yor gibiydi. Belli ki bir hikaye vard\u0131 G\u00fclistan\u2019\u0131n ard\u0131nda. Sonra \u00f6\u011frendim ki hem \u00f6ks\u00fcz hem hastayd\u0131 G\u00fclistan. \u00c7ok hastayd\u0131. Do\u011fu\u015ftan ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir kan hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131yd\u0131 onunki. Sekiz ya\u015f\u0131nda kaybetti\u011fi annesinden sonra daha da ilerlemi\u015fti. \u00c7aresi yok diyordu doktorlar.<\/p>\n
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\u0130lk dersimiz sonras\u0131 \u201c\u00d6rtmenim, biliyor musunuz annemin sa\u00e7lar\u0131 da sizin gibiydi. Ben tarard\u0131m.\u201d dedi G\u00fclistan. Dedi, h\u0131zl\u0131ca sar\u0131ld\u0131 ve utanm\u0131\u015f halde ko\u015farak gitti. Allah\u2019\u0131m bu y\u00fck bu \u00e7ocu\u011fa \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131r de\u011fil mi? Ah G\u00fclistan. \u00d6\u011fretmenli\u011fimin i\u00e7 s\u0131z\u0131s\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bana \u00f6\u011fretmenlikle birlikte anne olmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011fretti G\u00fclistan. Hafta sonlar\u0131 lojmana gelir, gelirken zor ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 zay\u0131f kollar\u0131yla yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 pasta b\u00f6rekleri getirirdi. \u201cSenin i\u00e7in yapt\u0131m \u00f6rtmenim.\u201d derdi. \u201cG\u00fcne\u015fle kalkt\u0131m senin i\u00e7in s\u00fcsledim, be\u011fendin mi?\u201d Ya\u015f\u0131 on bir ama ruhu be\u015fti G\u00fclistan\u2019\u0131n. Bir g\u00fcn lojmanda otururken bana kuaf\u00f6rc\u00fcl\u00fck oynamay\u0131 teklif etti. Tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ilk g\u00fcn s\u00f6yledi\u011fi s\u00f6z geldi akl\u0131ma. \u201c\u00d6rtmenim, annemin sa\u00e7lar\u0131 da sizin gibiydi\u2026\u201d Tamam dedim G\u00fclistan, oynayal\u0131m. G\u00fclistan tara\u011f\u0131 eline ald\u0131, sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 taramaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Sonras\u0131 G\u00fclistan\u2019\u0131n belli etmemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7 \u00e7eki\u015fleri, titreyen elleri, yere b\u00fckt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc dizlerine d\u00f6k\u00fclen g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131\u2026 Kim bilir akl\u0131nda hangi an\u0131lar\u0131. Ah G\u00fclistan, G\u00fclistan\u2019\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Derste sordu\u011fum sorular\u0131 bilemedi\u011finde beni \u00fczmekten korkard\u0131. \u201cSen anlatt\u0131yd\u0131n da \u00f6rtmenim, ben anlamad\u0131yd\u0131m.\u201d der beni avutturmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. T\u00fcm yaz\u0131l\u0131 ka\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131n\u0131n kenarlar\u0131, \u00e7izdi\u011fi \u00e7i\u00e7ekler kokard\u0131. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 taray\u0131p kula\u011f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7i\u00e7ek takmay\u0131 unutmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z hafta sonlar\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131 bizim. Bahar geldi\u011finde G\u00fclistan\u2019\u0131n papatya ta\u00e7lar\u0131yla s\u00fcslenen hafta sonlar\u0131m\u0131z. Lojman cam\u0131ndan yoku\u015fu ko\u015fa ko\u015fa \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde nefes nefese kal\u0131\u015f\u0131na \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm, yan\u0131mda bir \u015fey olacak diye i\u00e7im p\u0131rp\u0131r ederek vakit ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimiz, ne kadar k\u00f6t\u00fc hissetse de evdekilere \u201ciyiyim\u201d deyip gelmeyi ihmal etmedi\u011fi, \u015eenoba\u2019daki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck arkada\u015f\u0131mla dolu hafta sonlar\u0131m\u0131z.<\/p>\n
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Hem k\u0131sac\u0131k, hem upuzun bir y\u0131l ge\u00e7irdim \u015eenoba\u2019da. Y\u00fcre\u011fi kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ks\u0131z sevgi dolu, vatana bayra\u011fa sevgisi \u201cbenim\u201d diyenden \u00e7ok insanlar tan\u0131d\u0131m. Vakit geldi, ayr\u0131ld\u0131m. G\u00fclistan\u2019la konu\u015fmalar\u0131m\u0131z, yaz\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131m\u0131z azald\u0131. Duydum ki hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 ilerlemi\u015fti. Bir g\u00fcn telefon \u00e7ald\u0131. Bir haber: \u201cG\u00fclistan \u00f6ld\u00fc.\u201d \u0130\u00e7imden bir \u015fey akt\u0131 gitti. G\u00fclistan, \u00f6lebilir miydi? Son g\u00fcnlerde iyiden iyiye hastaym\u0131\u015f, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc bekleniyormu\u015f. Ama her \u00f6l\u00fcm erken \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u00fcr derler. G\u00fclistan\u2019\u0131n ipek sa\u00e7lar\u0131 topra\u011fa nas\u0131l d\u00fc\u015ferdi.<\/p>\n
Ba\u015f sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 dilemek i\u00e7in ablas\u0131n\u0131 arad\u0131m. Hangi kelime teselli edebilir ki gencecik bedenin gidi\u015fini. Ablas\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6yledikleri i\u00e7imde \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fcz, \u00f6\u011fretmenli\u011fi tarifsiz k\u0131ld\u0131. \u201cHocam\u201d dedi. \u201cG\u00fclistan foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131zla birlikte tara\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 saklard\u0131.\u201d Y\u00fcre\u011fimde bir \u0131l\u0131kl\u0131k\u2026 Foto\u011fraf hangi foto\u011fraf, tarak hangi tarak hi\u00e7 bilmiyorum. Kim bilir hangi hafta sonunun izleri. O an hissetti\u011fim en g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc \u015fey sa\u00e7 diplerimdeki s\u0131z\u0131 oldu.<\/p>\n
G\u00fclistan, G\u00fclistan\u2019\u0131m. Melek k\u0131z\u0131m. Yerin cennet olsun. Ellerinde annenin sa\u00e7lar\u0131, sa\u00e7lar\u0131nda papatya ta\u00e7lar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Y\u0131l 2012. \u015e\u0131rnak Uludere\u2019ye T\u00fcrk\u00e7e \u00d6\u011fretmeni olarak atand\u0131\u011f\u0131m haberine al\u0131\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m, valizime sevincime kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k teredd\u00fctlerimi…<\/p>\n