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<\/p>\nDeryadan gemiler ge\u00e7iyor. Her \u015feyin yava\u015flay\u0131p do\u011frudan kalbe inmesi, her k\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7e i\u015flemesi, an\u2019lar\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 bast\u0131rarak \u00e7izen kalemin ucunun k\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131. Gemilerin etraf\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011fa u\u011fuldayan mart\u0131lar\u0131n dile gelmesi.<\/p>\n
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Mevsim de\u011fi\u015fti. Toprak kar ve ya\u011fmur bekledik\u00e7e g\u00fcne\u015f a\u00e7\u0131yor. B\u00fct\u00fcn y\u0131l\u0131 salg\u0131n hastal\u0131kla ge\u00e7irdik ve bu g\u00fcne\u015f iyi g\u00fcnlerin i\u015fareti olabilir, ama ya kurakl\u0131k. Neden iki iyilik bir arada olmaz. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bize kesintisiz \u0131\u015f\u0131klar de\u011fil g\u00f6lgeler h\u00fcz\u00fcnler vaat edildi. Sokaktaki evimiz Mihrimah Sultan b\u00fct\u00fcn camiler gibi kapal\u0131. Avluda beklerken kediler ge\u00e7iyor ba\u015flar\u0131 \u00f6nlerinde. Onlar da hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131n getirdi\u011fi ve belki de hi\u00e7 kapanmayacak mesafeleri hissedip kendilerini korumaya alm\u0131\u015flar, uzak duruyorlar biz vir\u00fcsl\u00fclerden. Mimar Sinan\u2019\u0131n yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kad\u0131n dostu mabedin eteklerinin alt\u0131nda karton bardaktaki \u00e7ay\u0131m\u0131 i\u00e7erken etraf\u0131 tema\u015fa etme zaman\u0131. Art\u0131k zaman\u0131n e\u011filip b\u00fck\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, ileri geri kolayca gidip geldi\u011fimiz bir ruh var. Yerk\u00fcreyi esir alan minik vir\u00fcse yak\u0131ndan bakt\u0131n\u0131z m\u0131, hayret dolu delici bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131na. G\u00fcnde ikiy\u00fczelli ki\u015fi \u00f6l\u00fcyor bu g\u00fcnlerde, kay\u0131t edelim bunu, in\u015fallah ge\u00e7ecek diyerek. \u201cYeni normal\u201dde r\u00fb be r\u00fb bulu\u015fmalar kalkt\u0131. Cami avlusu bombo\u015f, yine de tertemiz s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcyorlar etraf\u0131. Yer bulmakta zorluk \u00e7ekti\u011fimiz, yaz k\u0131\u015f bize s\u0131cac\u0131k gelen a\u00e7\u0131k hava kad\u0131n mahfili so\u011fuk \u0131ss\u0131z ve tenha. Uzun y\u0131llar\u0131n dostlu\u011fuyla avluyu bekleyen iki tarihi \u00e7\u0131nar a\u011fac\u0131na selam verdim. Biri yapraklar\u0131n\u0131 tamamen d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f, g\u00f6vdesi ikiye yar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, di\u011feri ise r\u00fczgarda kalan son yapraklar\u0131n\u0131 savuruyor. Avludaki \u015fad\u0131rvanda birka\u00e7 ya\u015fl\u0131 adam ceketlerini omuzlar\u0131na atm\u0131\u015f abdest almakta. Gen\u00e7 bir k\u0131z \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 simidini al\u0131p bir kenara \u00e7\u00f6meldi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck kald\u0131. Hepimiz sindik b\u00f6yle. B\u00fct\u00fcn mekanlar kapal\u0131. Meydana \u00e7\u0131kan sokaklarda m\u00fcdavimi oldu\u011fumuz kafeler, \u00e7ay iskemleleri, deniz kenar\u0131 restoranlar\u0131, bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131lar hepsi metruk, kepenkler inik. <\/p>\n
Epeydir gelmedim sana \u00dcsk\u00fcdar. \u00c7\u0131nar\u0131n alt\u0131ndan Pa\u015faliman\u0131 istikametine y\u00fcr\u00fcyen maskeli insanlar\u0131 seyrederken, \u201cbu olmad\u0131\u201d dedi i\u00e7im, salg\u0131n gelmedi, bizi bi\u00e7medi, arabas\u0131nda uyuyan bebe\u011fe annesi bu korkun\u00e7 siyah maskeyi takmad\u0131, \u00e7ocuklar odalarda insans\u0131z kalmad\u0131, herkes kendine akla gelmedik yeni s\u0131n\u0131rlar yeni duvarlar \u00f6rmedi. Maskeli y\u00fcr\u00fcyenler olarak pahal\u0131 bir filmin fig\u00fcranlar\u0131y\u0131z, rol\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne bakmadan hakk\u0131n\u0131 vermeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz. Kad\u0131nlar esas k\u0131z gibi bak\u0131ml\u0131 ed\u00e2l\u0131, erkekler insanl\u0131k yoluna \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f Don Ki\u015fot gibi kararl\u0131. Maskelerin arkas\u0131nda olmaya al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k biz, nas\u0131l \u00e7\u0131karaca\u011f\u0131z bakal\u0131m. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za bir \u015fey geldi. Komplo kuruldu, birileri insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za kastetti, n\u00fcfusu azaltmak istiyorlar ya da Nuh tufan\u0131 gibi do\u011fal bir felaketin vakti saati gelmi\u015fti, neyse ne. Ger\u00e7ek \u015fu ki caminin yan kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n merdivenine oturdum g\u00f6revli geldi ve buray\u0131 s\u00fcp\u00fcrmesi gerekti\u011fini s\u00f6yledi, oturmak yasak belki, amenna. <\/p>\n
Deryadan gemiler ge\u00e7iyor. Her \u015feyin yava\u015flay\u0131p do\u011frudan kalbe inmesi, her k\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7e i\u015flemesi, an\u2019lar\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 bast\u0131rarak \u00e7izen kalemin ucunun k\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131. Gemilerin etraf\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011fa u\u011fuldayan mart\u0131lar\u0131n dile gelmesi. G\u00fcne\u015fe bakmay\u0131n, deniz dalgal\u0131, renk koyu lacivert, Salacak taraf\u0131 \u0131\u015f\u0131klar i\u00e7inde, g\u00fcnl\u00fck g\u00fcne\u015flik, Kuzguncuk sahilinde kara bulutlar. Yahya Kemal and\u0131 bizi: \u201cBir merhaleden g\u00fcne\u015fle derya g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr\/Bir merhaleden her iki d\u00fcnya g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr.\u201d Galata Kulesi \u00f6telerde. \u00c7\u0131kmakla bitmeyen asans\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum nedense. Zindana inen karanl\u0131k merdivenini. Rapunzel\u2019in sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 sark\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kule bu de\u011fil ama, o K\u0131z Kulesi. Kalp karartan G\u00f6kkafes oralardan el ediyor, etraf\u0131nda kopan k\u0131yamet nas\u0131l da dindi. Bu \u015fehir bizi affedecek mi? Onu aratacak ne \u00e7ok g\u00fclyabani bina girdi kadraj\u0131na, ne \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fc geldi ge\u00e7ti ba\u015f\u0131ndan. <\/p>\n
H\u00e2l\u00e2 m\u00fcnavebeyle ezan okunuyor mu Valide Sultan camii ile Mihrimah aras\u0131nda. Birden g\u00f6z\u00fcme Ayazma Camii ili\u015fti, avlusunda g\u00fcng\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f \u015fahitlik etmi\u015f a\u011fa\u00e7lar, kedileri k\u00f6pekleri besleyen bir adam. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131da sa\u011fa bak\u0131nca, b\u00fcfelerin az \u00f6tesinde As\u0131m G\u00fcltekin\u2019in gen\u00e7lerle Sezai Karako\u00e7 \u015fiirleri okudu\u011fu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ye\u015fil alan. En son \u00c7aml\u0131ca Camisinde Muhammediye okuyordu gelenlere. A\u00e7\u0131k bir sahaf g\u00f6rd\u00fcm hemen iki kitap ald\u0131m tanesi be\u015f liradan. Sami Pa\u015fazade Sezai\u2019nin Serg\u00fcze\u015ft\u2019i, Afet \u0130lgaz\u2019\u0131n Ermi\u015f\u2019i. <\/p>\n
Sahile inme zaman\u0131. Karabataklar yine oyun pe\u015finde, bat\u0131p \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorlar. O da ne daha \u00f6nce hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fckte denizanalar\u0131 sarm\u0131\u015f k\u0131y\u0131y\u0131. \u00c7ok ama \u00e7ok korkun\u00e7. Burada y\u00fczd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnemiyorum, \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k atmaktan batar giderdim eminim. Topkap\u0131 sadeli\u011fi asaleti, yan\u0131nda Ayasofya y\u00fcceli\u011fi, biraz \u00f6teden Sultanahmet huzuru. Arkalarda doyumsuz an\u0131larla, iftarlarla S\u00fcleymaniye. Biraz geriden y\u0131llarca eczac\u0131l\u0131k yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m Fatih\u2019ten, Yavuz Selim Camii\u2019nin minaresi. Tehlikeli dip ak\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 bildi\u011fim Sarayburnu\u2019nu g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum, azarlam\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m var her yaz kendilerini buradan denize f\u0131rlatan Afgan, \u00d6zbek, Suriyeli \u00e7ocuklar\u0131. Her y\u0131l \u00f6l\u00fcyorlar i\u00e7imizi da\u011flayarak. Ge\u00e7en haftam\u0131z salg\u0131n\u0131n bizden ald\u0131klar\u0131 i\u00e7in ba\u015fsa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve ge\u00e7mi\u015f olsun dilekleriyle ge\u00e7ti. Apartman\u0131m\u0131zda \u015fu an iki kom\u015fumuz ailece vir\u00fcse yakalanm\u0131\u015f durumda, tedavileri s\u00fcr\u00fcyor. <\/p>\n
K\u0131z Kulesinin etraf\u0131 yine foto\u011fraf \u00e7ekenlerle dolu. Ne efsunk\u00e2r imi\u015fsin ey k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck yap\u0131. Bir Roman kad\u0131n g\u00fcl sepetiyle bana do\u011fru ilerliyor. Sadece \u00e7iftlere giderler ne i\u015f. \u0130\u015fler kesatsa. Ald\u0131m birka\u00e7 tane. G\u00fcl\u00fc reddetmek olmaz. Bir cami avlusundan b\u00f6yle kapat\u0131yoruz g\u00f6n\u00fcl k\u0131\u015f\u0131yla ibretle ge\u00e7en bu yorgun y\u0131l\u0131.<\/p>\n
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