Muavin, otob\u00fcse binmeden \u00f6nce \u00f6n kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde durdu. Etraf\u0131na bak\u0131narak ulu orta \u201cE\u015fme yolcusu kalmas\u0131n!\u201d diye birka\u00e7 kez seslendi. G\u00f6bekli \u015fof\u00f6r, konta\u011f\u0131 \u00e7evirip otob\u00fcs\u00fc \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131. Bilmem ka\u00e7 model Mercedes otob\u00fcs, yava\u015f yava\u015f k\u00f6hne otogardan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p \u015fehrin yeg\u00e2ne caddesinde dura kalka ilerlemeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Yolcu say\u0131s\u0131 yar\u0131dan az fazlayd\u0131. Ben, on \u00fc\u00e7 numaral\u0131 koltukta tek ba\u015f\u0131ma oturuyor; uzun zamand\u0131r y\u0131kanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 belli olan otob\u00fcs\u00fcn tozlu cam\u0131ndan d\u0131\u015far\u0131y\u0131 seyretmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n
Sabah serinli\u011finde insanlar kar\u0131ncalar gibi tela\u015fl\u0131. Kimileri kepenk kald\u0131r\u0131p d\u00fckk\u00e2n a\u00e7\u0131yor. Kimileri acele acele veya elleri cebinde avare ad\u0131mlarla i\u015fe gidiyor. K\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015flar\u0131nda durup gelip ge\u00e7eni aval aval seyredenler de var. Kahvehane \u00f6nlerine geli\u015fig\u00fczel at\u0131lan sandalyelerde oturup \u00e7aylar\u0131n\u0131 yudumlayarak sigaras\u0131n\u0131 t\u00fctt\u00fcrenler, alametifarikam\u0131z. <\/p>\n
Cadde boyunca s\u0131k s\u0131k sa\u011fa yana\u015f\u0131p sokak ba\u015flar\u0131ndan veya d\u00fckk\u00e2n \u00f6nlerinden yolcu alan otob\u00fcs; cadde sona erdi\u011finde, iki yan\u0131nda birer iki\u015fer katl\u0131, gecekondu g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcml\u00fc, omuz omuza evler bulunan geni\u015f\u00e7e bir soka\u011fa sapt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Geceleyin \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcp de birbirine sokulmu\u015f gibi duran bu evlerin aras\u0131ndan ge\u00e7ip giderken bir yerlerdeki k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131nda bir kad\u0131n el kald\u0131rd\u0131. Kad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda ihtiyar bir adam. Otob\u00fcs durdu. Muavin indi. Kad\u0131n\u0131n el kol hareketi e\u015fli\u011finde bir \u015feyler s\u00f6yledi\u011fi muavin, ihtiyara yard\u0131m ederek \u00f6n kap\u0131dan otob\u00fcse bindirdi.<\/p>\n
Memnuniyetsiz bir y\u00fcz ifadesiyle ihtiyar adam\u0131 muavine teslim eden orta ya\u015flardaki kad\u0131n, ne bekledi ne bir el sallad\u0131. Arkas\u0131na bile d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakmadan h\u0131zla \u00e7ekip gitti. K\u0131z\u0131 m\u0131yd\u0131, gelini miydi ya da bir ba\u015fka akrabas\u0131 m\u0131yd\u0131 bilmiyorum. Han\u0131m\u0131 veya karde\u015fi olmas\u0131 imk\u00e2ns\u0131z.<\/p>\n
\u0130nce uzun boylu, kara kuru bir adam. Hafif kamburu \u00e7\u0131k\u0131k. Avurtlar\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fck. T\u0131ra\u015f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015f g\u00fcnl\u00fck. Ya\u015f\u0131 yetmi\u015fi \u00e7oktan a\u015fm\u0131\u015f olabilir. Y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015f k\u00f6\u015feli kasketini kulaklar\u0131na kadar indirmi\u015f. Ceketi buru\u015fuk, pantolonu \u00fct\u00fcs\u00fcz. Ceketinin b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fc\u011fmeleri ve g\u00f6mle\u011finin en \u00fcst d\u00fc\u011fmesi ba\u011fl\u0131. Elinde siyah bir torba. \u0130\u00e7erisinde birka\u00e7 par\u00e7a giysi olmal\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcyerek yava\u015f ve k\u0131sa ad\u0131mlarla, arada yalpalayarak koridorda ilerledi. Sanki bast\u0131\u011f\u0131 yeri incitmemeye \u00f6zen g\u00f6steriyordu. Onu takip eden muavinin g\u00f6sterdi\u011fi koltu\u011fa s\u00fct d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f kedi gibi oturdu. Hayattan b\u0131k\u0131p usanm\u0131\u015f bir h\u00e2li vard\u0131. Elindeki torbay\u0131 koltu\u011fun alt\u0131na, bacaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na yerle\u015ftirip arkas\u0131na yasland\u0131. Yan\u0131na oturdu\u011fu g\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u00fc, tak\u0131m elbiseli ve boyunu kravatl\u0131 adam ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p bakmad\u0131 bile. Elindeki telefonuyla me\u015fgul.<\/p>\n
Otob\u00fcs hareket ettikten bir s\u00fcre sonra benim taraf\u0131ma ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirdi. Fersiz g\u00f6zlerini k\u0131rp\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131. Sanki bir yerlerden hat\u0131rlay\u0131p tan\u0131yacakm\u0131\u015f gibi bakt\u0131. Bunu birka\u00e7 kez yap\u0131nca beni tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 birisine benzetti diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Ku\u015fluk vakti, ilk defa bindi\u011fim bu otob\u00fcste beni kim tan\u0131yabilir ki?<\/p>\n
K\u00f6ylerin, mahallelerin, tarlalar\u0131n, yol ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan t\u0131ng\u0131r m\u0131ng\u0131r ilerleyen otob\u00fcs; d\u00f6neme\u00e7lerden d\u00f6n\u00fcyor, yama\u00e7lardan iniyor, yoku\u015flardan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor. \u0130nenlerin ve binenlerin ard\u0131 arkas\u0131 kesilmiyor. Baz\u0131lar\u0131 \u015fof\u00f6rle, muavinle yarenlik edip lafl\u0131yor. Birbirini tan\u0131yanlar var.<\/p>\n
Koltukta uslu uslu duran adam, epey zaman sonra ceketinin ceplerini kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Belli ki bir \u015feyler ar\u0131yordu. Arad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bulduktan sonra tutunacak bir yer, bir dal ar\u0131yormu\u015f gibi y\u00fcz\u00fcme bakt\u0131. Cebinden \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 alelade y\u0131rt\u0131lm\u0131\u015f k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 bana g\u00f6sterip su\u00e7 i\u015flemi\u015f bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun mahcup edas\u0131yla \u201cTelefonun var m\u0131?\u201d diye sordu. \u201cVar.\u201d dedim. Damarlar\u0131 bile belli olmayan, kuru, sanki kemikten ibaret elinde tuttu\u011fu k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 bana uzatt\u0131. Zay\u0131f bir sesle \u201cKaatta yazan telefonu bana aray\u0131v\u0131rcaan m\u0131?\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n
Uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 al\u0131p bakt\u0131m. Bu, karton ila\u00e7 kutusunun \u00fcst kapa\u011f\u0131. Rastgele kopar\u0131l\u0131p \u00fczerine olabildi\u011fince acemi bir yaz\u0131yla \u201c\u0130bo\u201d ve bir de kargac\u0131k burgac\u0131k telefon numaras\u0131 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f. \u201c\u0130bo\u2019ya ne diyece\u011fim?\u201d diye sordum. \u201cBacana\u011f\u0131n S\u00fclo, E\u015fme otob\u00fcs\u00fcyle k\u00f6ye geliyo. Yol ayr\u0131m\u0131nda bekleycemi\u015fsin deyiver.\u201d dedi. \u201cOtob\u00fcs ne zaman yol ayr\u0131m\u0131nda olur?\u201d dedi\u011fimde \u201cYar\u0131m saate var\u0131r.\u201d kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 verdi.<\/p>\n
K\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 sa\u011f elimden sol elime ge\u00e7irdim. Cebimden telefonumu \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m. Yanl\u0131\u015f numara \u00e7evirmemek i\u00e7in sol elimde tuttu\u011fum k\u00e2\u011f\u0131da dikkatlice bakarak yaz\u0131l\u0131 telefon numaras\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirdim. Telefon epeyce \u00e7ald\u0131ktan sonra a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. \u201cAlo\u201d dedim. Kar\u015f\u0131dan \u201cAlo\u201d bekledim, gelmedi. Selam verdim, \u201c\u0130yi g\u00fcnler.\u201d dedim. Ses seda yok. Bu sefer konuya girdim. \u201c\u0130brahim Bey; ben, E\u015fme otob\u00fcs\u00fcnden ar\u0131yorum. Bacana\u011f\u0131n S\u00fclo sana geliyor. K\u00f6ye ayr\u0131lan yolda bekleyip kar\u015f\u0131layacakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131z. Otob\u00fcs yar\u0131m saate var\u0131rm\u0131\u015f.\u201d dedim. Arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m adam, her nas\u0131lsa sadece k\u0131sa bir \u201cHaa!\u201d deyip telefonu kapatt\u0131. A\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan Haa\u2019n\u0131n aalar\u0131, a\u2019dan ziyade o\u2019ya benziyordu.<\/p>\n
Adam\u0131n beni anlay\u0131p anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlayamad\u0131m. Anlayabilmek i\u00e7in iki defa daha aral\u0131klarla arad\u0131m. Bir daha telefonu a\u00e7an olmad\u0131. Bo\u015f ver dercesine elini sallayan adama telefon numaras\u0131 yaz\u0131l\u0131 k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 geri verdim. Kuru dudaklar\u0131nda, sisli bir tebess\u00fcm belirdi. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 bir s\u00fcre elinde tutup cebine koydu, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ne e\u011fdi.<\/p>\n
Bahsetti\u011fi k\u00f6y\u00fcn yol ayr\u0131m\u0131na vard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda otob\u00fcs durdu. Muavin yard\u0131m etti. \u0130htiyar, otob\u00fcse nas\u0131l bindiyse ayn\u0131 ad\u0131mlar ve ayn\u0131 y\u00fcz ifadesiyle otob\u00fcsten indi. Yorgun, bitkin, b\u0131kk\u0131n ve bezgindi. Kavruk ve k\u0131vrak muavin, onu yava\u015f yava\u015f yolun kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ge\u00e7irdi. H\u0131zl\u0131ca geri d\u00f6n\u00fcp \u00f6n kap\u0131dan otob\u00fcse atlad\u0131. \u015eof\u00f6r gaza bast\u0131, otob\u00fcs yava\u015f yava\u015f hareket edip uzakla\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u0130htiyar adam; y\u0131llard\u0131r asfalttan k\u00f6ye, k\u00f6yden asfalta do\u011fru durup dinlenmeksizin ak\u0131p duran o yorgun toprak yolun ba\u015f\u0131nda c\u0131l\u0131z bir heykel gibi dikilip kald\u0131. Elinde siyah renkli b\u00fcy\u00fck bir torba. G\u00f6nl\u00fcnde ve zihninde bilmedi\u011fim, ama hissetti\u011fim a\u011f\u0131r bir y\u00fck.<\/p>\n
Sol dirse\u011fimi koltu\u011fun kol\u00e7a\u011f\u0131na, sol yana\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sol elimin avu\u00e7 i\u00e7ine yaslad\u0131m. Tozlu cam\u0131n arkas\u0131ndan d\u0131\u015far\u0131y\u0131 seyrediyorum. G\u00fcya geride kalan da\u011flara, ta\u015flara, a\u011fa\u00e7lara, ba\u011flara, bah\u00e7elere, evlere, k\u00f6ylere bak\u0131yorum. G\u00f6n\u00fcl da\u011f\u0131ma nedenler, ni\u00e7inler, niyeler, ne diyeler ya\u011fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. \u00dcstelik birden.<\/p>\n
\u0130htiyar adam\u0131 otob\u00fcse bindiren kad\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc niye as\u0131k, ka\u015flar\u0131 niye \u00e7at\u0131kt\u0131? Elindeki k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tta yaz\u0131l\u0131 numaray\u0131 aramay\u0131 yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda telefonuyla me\u015fgul olan adamdan de\u011fil de daha uza\u011f\u0131ndaki benden niye istedi? Ona s\u00f6ylemeye cesaret edemediyse ni\u00e7in cesaret edemedi, ne diye \u00e7ekindi?<\/p>\n
Bacana\u011f\u0131 \u0130bo nas\u0131l bir adamd\u0131 ki bir kez s\u00f6yledi\u011fi Haa\u2019dan ba\u015fka tek s\u00f6z s\u00f6ylemedi. Tekrar arad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda ni\u00e7in telefonu a\u00e7mad\u0131? Yol ayr\u0131m\u0131nda bacana\u011f\u0131 ya da bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 onu ni\u00e7in beklemedi?<\/p>\n
Yoksa bu ihtiyar adam, \u015fehirde de k\u00f6yde de istenmiyor muydu?<\/p>\n
Ha! Bir de ihtiyarl\u0131k\u2026<\/p>\n
\u015eu ihtiyarl\u0131k, bu kadar zor mudur yahu?<\/p>\n
Vakit, koca ku\u015fluk oldu. \u0130lk g\u00fcz g\u00fcne\u015fi zevale ermek \u00fczere. Hava \u0131s\u0131n\u0131yor. Yava\u015f yava\u015f.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Muavin, otob\u00fcse binmeden \u00f6nce \u00f6n kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde durdu. Etraf\u0131na bak\u0131narak ulu orta \u201cE\u015fme yolcusu kalmas\u0131n!\u201d…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":43,"featured_media":3104,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_uag_custom_page_level_css":"","ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[16],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[239],"class_list":["post-3103","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-hikaye"],"yoast_head":"\n