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<\/p>\nBelki hat\u0131ras\u0131 var demi\u015flerdir. O y\u00fczden k\u0131yamam\u0131\u015flard\u0131r. Belki de bir bah\u00e7e duvar\u0131 yapmak i\u00e7in burada bekletilmektedir. \u015eimdi nerede \u00f6yle ta\u015f duvarlar. O duvar\u0131 yapacak ustalar. \u0130ki kal\u0131p, biraz demir, haz\u0131r beton. Al sana duvar. Ne bir sanat, ne bir zanaat, ne bir zarafet. Neyse zaten konumuz da bu de\u011fil. Biz \u015furac\u0131kta \u00fczerinde m\u0131s\u0131r \u00f6\u011f\u00fctmek i\u00e7in \u00e7eki\u00e7 darbeleriyle a\u00e7\u0131lan di\u015flileri duran, her yeri yosun tutmu\u015f, 30 y\u0131l\u0131 a\u015fk\u0131nd\u0131r kaderine terk edilen de\u011firmen ta\u015flar\u0131na geri d\u00f6nelim.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015fte bu ta\u015flar bah\u00e7eden usulca \u00e7\u0131kan ya\u015fl\u0131 adam\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnden ka\u00e7mad\u0131. Bir m\u00fcddet ayakta durup bakt\u0131. Sonra y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc eski de\u011firmenin oldu\u011fu yere \u00e7evirip ta\u015flar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne oturdu. Buna oturdu denemez. Asl\u0131nda onlarca y\u0131l\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fczerindeyken \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp kald\u0131. \u201cHey gidi g\u00fcnler hey!\u201d demi\u015ftir i\u00e7inden ve muhakkak o g\u00fcnlere geri d\u00f6nmek istemi\u015ftir. \u0130nsan\u0131n atiden beklentisi kalmay\u0131nca maziye sar\u0131l\u0131yor. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fteki k\u00f6t\u00fc g\u00fcnleri bile \u00f6zl\u00fcyor. Kendinden bir \u015fey bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve yaln\u0131zla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu garip d\u00fcnyada zaman\u0131n garibi oluyor. \u0130\u015fte budur asl\u0131nda maziye olan \u00f6zlemdeki s\u0131r.<\/p>\n
\u00dczerine oturdu\u011fu \u015fu ta\u015flar\u0131n bir dili olsa da konu\u015fsa; kim bilir neler s\u00f6ylerlerdi? \u0130ki ta\u015f birlik olup nice m\u0131s\u0131rlar\u0131 un ufak etmi\u015flerdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn bu olup bitenler; \u015fimdi yerinde b\u00f6\u011f\u00fcrtlenler, \u0131s\u0131rganlar, boy boy yabani otlar b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, kimi yerlerinden a\u011fa\u00e7lar uzam\u0131\u015f \u015fu dere kenar\u0131ndaki bir k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck de\u011firmende olup bitmi\u015fti. Suyun yukar\u0131dan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya do\u011fru h\u0131zla ak\u0131p geldi\u011fi oluk olmasayd\u0131 elbette bu ta\u015flar d\u00f6nmezdi. \u0130htiyar da ta\u015flarda ayn\u0131 \u015feyi mi hat\u0131rl\u0131yordu acaba? Kimi zaman oluk t\u0131kan\u0131rd\u0131 da ta\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fcren \u00e7arklar dururdu. O zaman i\u015f de\u011firmenciye d\u00fc\u015ferdi. Girerdi de\u011firmenin alt\u0131na. \u00c7arklara suyun h\u0131zla \u00e7arpmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flayan olu\u011fun en ucuna. Buras\u0131 yapraklardan, \u00e7al\u0131dan, \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131dan velhas\u0131l canl\u0131 cans\u0131z bir\u00e7ok \u015feyden t\u0131kanabilirdi. Bazen kurba\u011fan\u0131n bile olu\u011fu t\u0131kad\u0131\u011f\u0131 olurdu. De\u011firmencinin bir \u00e7ilesi de i\u015fte budur. S\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam olmay\u0131 g\u00f6ze almal\u0131, t\u0131kan\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 gidermeli, d\u00f6nmeyen ta\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fcrmeliydi. De\u011firmen \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmal\u0131, s\u0131ras\u0131 gelenin m\u0131s\u0131r\u0131 un olmal\u0131yd\u0131. De\u011firmenin yazlar\u0131 m\u00fc\u015fterisi az olurdu. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc derenin suyu ta\u015f\u0131 yeterince d\u00f6nd\u00fcrmeye yetmezdi. Ama k\u0131\u015f\u0131 \u00f6yle miydi? K\u0131\u015f\u0131n suyun co\u015fkusu de\u011firmenin de co\u015fkusuydu. Co\u015fkun akan su oluktan ta\u015far, k\u00f6yl\u00fcler de\u011firmene s\u0131\u011fmazd\u0131. Yak\u0131n k\u00f6ylerden bile gelenler olurdu. Atlar\u0131, e\u015fekleri ba\u011flayacak yer bulunmazd\u0131. De\u011firmen hi\u00e7 durmadan \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. De\u011firmenci \u00f6nce m\u0131s\u0131r\u0131n miktar\u0131na g\u00f6re hakk\u0131 olan\u0131 al\u0131r, sonra tekneyi doldururdu. Bu arada de\u011firmenin her yan\u0131 gibi de\u011firmenci de undan nasibini al\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
De\u011firmende ne sohbetler olurdu bir bilseniz. Ge\u00e7im derdi, k\u0131\u015f\u0131 atlatma tela\u015f\u0131, alacaklar, verecekler, gurbet\u00e7iler, s\u0131n\u0131r anla\u015fmazl\u0131klar\u0131, miras kavgalar\u0131, \u00e7ocuklar ve onlar \u00fczerine kurulan hayaller, d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnler, dernekler, davetler\u2026 K\u0131\u015f\u0131n so\u011fu\u011funda de\u011firmenin k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131nda hi\u00e7 durmadan yanan ate\u015f ve yudumlanan \u00e7aylar da s\u0131k\u0131 sohbetlere e\u015flik ederdi.<\/p>\n
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Acaba bu garip ihtiyar hat\u0131rlar m\u0131 bilmem? Bir g\u00fcn \u00f6yle kar ya\u011fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki de\u011firmencinin evine gitmesi, evden birilerinin gelmesi ne m\u00fcmk\u00fcn. Kar ara vermeden ya\u011f\u0131yor, r\u00fczg\u00e2r kar tanelerini kur\u015fun gibi savuruyor, de\u011firmenci de\u011firmende mahsur kal\u0131yordu. Al\u0131\u015f\u0131kt\u0131 b\u00f6yle durumlara, hi\u00e7 dert etmiyordu. \u201cNas\u0131l olsa yakacak odunum var. Ate\u015fin yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na bo\u015f \u00e7uvallar\u0131 serer, k\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131p yatar\u0131m orac\u0131kta. Bu arada i\u015fimi bitiririm. Elbet hava m\u00fcsaade eder. Bu g\u00fcn olmazsa yar\u0131n evime giderim.\u201d diyordu kendi kendine. Tabiat\u0131n her h\u00e2line al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f biri i\u00e7in bu \u00e7okta sorun de\u011fildi. Ona g\u00f6re Allah\u2019\u0131n dedi\u011fi olur, kaderinde ne varsa onu ya\u015fard\u0131. En \u00f6nemli sorunu olsa olsa a\u00e7l\u0131k olurdu. Yan\u0131nda yiyecek yoktu. \u00c7aydanl\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00e7ay\u0131 ve \u015fekeri vard\u0131 ama \u00e7ayla olacak i\u015f de\u011fildi. \u201cOlsun.\u201d dedi de\u011firmenci. \u201cOru\u00e7 tuttu\u011fuma sayar\u0131m. Yats\u0131y\u0131 k\u0131l\u0131p yatar\u0131m. Sabah bir h\u00e2l \u00e7aresi bulunur elbet.\u201d Yats\u0131 vakti geldi\u011finde ate\u015fe iki b\u00fcy\u00fck odun par\u00e7as\u0131 at\u0131p, yats\u0131y\u0131 ate\u015f ba\u015f\u0131nda k\u0131l\u0131p ate\u015fin kenar\u0131na uzand\u0131. \u00dczerine kal\u0131n bo\u015f y\u00fcn \u00e7uvallar serdi. Uykuya dalana kadar de\u011firmen ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 sesleri, r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n u\u011fultusunu dinledi. \u00c7\u0131kan sesleri anlaml\u0131 h\u00e2le getirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak m\u00fczikal bir u\u011fra\u015f verdi. Kimi zaman seslerin ahengine denk d\u00fc\u015fen s\u00f6zc\u00fckler m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131. Hangi ara uykuya dald\u0131 bilinmez, her zaman oldu\u011fu gibi sabah namaz\u0131na uyand\u0131. Uyan\u0131r uyanmaz s\u00f6nmeye y\u00fcz tutmu\u015f ate\u015fi yeniden canland\u0131rd\u0131. Hemen bir ad\u0131m uza\u011f\u0131ndaki kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7mak istedi. O da ne! Kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7ar a\u00e7maz i\u00e7eriye kar doldu. Sabaha kadar ya\u011fan kar iyice y\u00fckselmi\u015f, de\u011firmencinin boyuna yakla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hi\u00e7 b\u00f6yle olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu kadar kar ya\u011fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama b\u00f6ylesine mahsur kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceli, de\u011firmenin suyunu tekrar \u00e7arklara sald\u0131. Ta\u015f yava\u015f yava\u015f d\u00f6nmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Ta\u015f h\u0131zland\u0131k\u00e7a t\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131 sesleri de h\u0131zland\u0131. De\u011firmenci s\u0131radaki m\u0131s\u0131r \u00e7uval\u0131n\u0131 tekneye doldurdu. Tekne m\u0131s\u0131rdan nasibini alm\u0131\u015f, m\u0131s\u0131r taneleri un h\u00e2line gelmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bile. Peki, \u015fimdi iyice ac\u0131kan de\u011firmenci ne yapacakt\u0131? Kara kara d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Bir \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm olmal\u0131yd\u0131. \u0130stemedi\u011fi kadar un, pamuk beyaz\u0131 kar, alev alev yanan ate\u015f varken a\u00e7 m\u0131 kal\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131? \u00c7ok ge\u00e7meden karar\u0131n\u0131 verdi. Ekmek pi\u015firecekti. Bunu yapabilirdi. De\u011firmenci ekme\u011fini yapm\u0131\u015f ve bir g\u00fczel yemi\u015fti. Ama nas\u0131l? \u00d6nce yerlerini ezbere bildi\u011fi geni\u015f yaprakl\u0131 bitkilere kar y\u0131\u011f\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fa sola savurarak ula\u015ft\u0131. Tepsi b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcndeki yapraklar\u0131n \u00fczerine un d\u00f6k\u00fcp, kar suyu ile hamur h\u00e2line getirdi. Hamuru yapraklarla iyice sar\u0131p \u00f6nceden haz\u0131r etti\u011fi k\u00fcl\u00fcn i\u00e7ine g\u00f6md\u00fc. K\u00fcl\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnde tekrar ate\u015fi canland\u0131rd\u0131. Bir s\u00fcre sonra tuzsuz ama mis gibi kokan ekme\u011fi \u00e7ay e\u015fli\u011finde yeme\u011fe ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bile.<\/p>\n
Kim bilir? Derin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere dalm\u0131\u015f ihtiyar \u015f\u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordur: \u015fimdilerde kimse ne de\u011firmende mahsur, ne de a\u00e7 kal\u0131r. Bir kere y\u0131llard\u0131r b\u00f6yle kar ya\u011fm\u0131yor. Art\u0131k su de\u011firmeni mazide kalan hat\u0131radan ba\u015fka bir \u015fey de\u011fil.<\/p>\n
Derin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere dalm\u0131\u015f ihtiyar de\u011firmenci bir m\u00fcddet daha ta\u015flar\u0131n \u00fczerinde oturdu. Sonra de\u011firmenin oldu\u011fu yere do\u011fru birka\u00e7 ad\u0131m att\u0131. B\u00f6\u011f\u00fcrtlen dikenlerini, \u0131s\u0131rganlar\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u00fcyor gibiydi. Bir an eski g\u00fcnlerdeki gibi de\u011firmene ilerliyor zannettim. Tekrar durdu, b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccuduyla yava\u015f\u00e7a geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc. De\u011firmen ta\u015flar\u0131na yava\u015f hareketlerle ellerini s\u00fcrd\u00fc. Belli ki; ihtiyar ta\u015flara de\u011fil, de\u011firmene ve hat\u0131ralar\u0131na veda ediyordu. Peki, kimdi bu ihtiyar?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Belki hat\u0131ras\u0131 var demi\u015flerdir. O y\u00fczden k\u0131yamam\u0131\u015flard\u0131r. Belki de bir bah\u00e7e duvar\u0131 yapmak i\u00e7in burada…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":21,"featured_media":2896,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_uag_custom_page_level_css":"","ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[16],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[180],"class_list":["post-2895","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-hikaye"],"yoast_head":"\n