Y\u00fcre\u011fim yaral\u0131… \u0130\u00e7im i\u00e7ime s\u0131\u011fm\u0131yor; depre\u015fmekte… A\u015fk ate\u015fine tutulan g\u00f6nl\u00fcm, a\u00e7 kurtlar gibi i\u00e7imi kemirmekte… Y\u00fcre\u011fim rehin. Fidyesi sevgi. Kara sevda… Kurcalar beynimi t\u0131rm\u0131kla \u00e7apadan kalma nazenin. Ruhum kald\u0131r\u0131mlarda bu ak\u015fam. \u00c7ak\u0131rkeyif. Gezer sevdam, bulan\u0131r haf\u0131zam. Gezginim. Gezerim d\u00fcnyay\u0131 diyar diyar; gezdi\u011fin, ayak bast\u0131\u011f\u0131n topraklarda. Zincirler, prangalar eskittim. Nafile… Nefretimle, sevgimle izin s\u0131ra y\u00fcr\u00fcmekteyim. Azmim y\u00fcre\u011fimden destek alarak.
\nNefretim seni bar\u0131nd\u0131rmayan topraklara
\nSevgim sana kucak a\u00e7an topraklara.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u0131kmaz sokak al\u0131r ba\u015f\u0131n gider
\nSeher vakti
\n\u00d6ten horozlar\u0131n sesiyle
\nY\u00fcklenerek tasas\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131llar\u0131n
\nEskimeyen tezg\u00e2h\u0131nda yollar\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Toz zerrecikleri aras\u0131nda kaybolan g\u00f6zlerin var ya… O g\u00f6zler derinden yaralar kalbimi. Ate\u015f olur yakar. Ate\u015f menzilindeyim. Bir anlayabilsen beni?
\nO zaman sen de anlars\u0131n yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, bi\u00e7areli\u011fimi. Hak verirsin yosun tutan kalbime\u2026
\nHayalin yosun tutar kalbimin ta derinliklerinde.
\nDepre\u015fir, yaral\u0131 g\u00f6nl\u00fcm.
\nBir yara da a\u00e7\u0131lsa kalbinde benden yana.
\nS\u00f6zlerimi anlars\u0131n, i\u015fte o zaman.
\nEllerimiz kenetlensin bir ho\u015f olal\u0131m biz de… Kelebekler kadar \u00f6zg\u00fcr ve narin… Sensizlik tarih sayfalar\u0131nda k\u00f6t\u00fc bir an\u0131 olarak kals\u0131n, gel birlikte:<\/p>\n
Eritelim buz da\u011flar\u0131n\u0131
\nAt s\u00fcrelim obas\u0131nda ayaz\u0131n.
\n\u00c7i\u011f olup d\u00fc\u015felim
\nG\u00fcller a\u00e7an bahar\u0131n.<\/p>\n
“Yok!” deme, bana… Ac\u0131lar\u0131ma katran d\u00f6kme… Yollara d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrme beni… Avare avare doland\u0131rma kald\u0131r\u0131mlarda… Kaskat\u0131 k\u00f6r inad\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131rak k\u0131r zincirleri.<\/p>\n
Daralan ufkun bahar\u0131nda
\nEllerimde ye\u015feren g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fckler
\nMahzun bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131mla
\nBeklerim seni…<\/p>\n
Yeter ki sen gel. Pervane olur, etraf\u0131nda d\u00f6nerim. Ne olur nazl\u0131 yar, gel art\u0131k bu sevdadan vazge\u00e7. Bir b\u00fbse ile canland\u0131r k\u00f6relen kalbimi.<\/p>\n
Kuruyan duygular\u0131m,
\nCanlanmak i\u00e7in bahar bekler.
\nDaha ne bekliyorsun?<\/p>\n
Gelmeyince;<\/p>\n
O zaman g\u00fcller a\u00e7ar m\u0131 ki yanaklar\u0131nda?
\nG\u00fcl peri al dudakl\u0131 yar.
\nAlev alev b\u00fcy\u00fcr ac\u0131lar\u0131m yoklu\u011funda.
\nAc\u0131lara batan kalemim, sevdalar\u0131 yazmaz ki! Dudaklar\u0131ndan d\u00f6k\u00fclen s\u00f6zleri, g\u00f6zlerimden akan ya\u015flar\u0131 bilmez ki!
\nAma sen b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 biliyorsun; sensiz ge\u00e7en g\u00fcnlerin birer matem oldu\u011funu, bir alev topu olup beni sard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ezdi\u011fini yok etti\u011fini…<\/p>\n
Ama yine de;
\nMahzun bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131mla
\nBeklerim seni…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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