\u0130n\u015faat\u0131n intihara s\u00fcr\u00fckleyen sesine kanepede uyuyan e\u015fimin vah\u015fi yarat\u0131klar\u0131n homurtusunu g\u00f6lgede b\u0131rakan horlamas\u0131 da kar\u0131\u015f\u0131nca kendimi mutfakta buluyorum. Piyasa fiyat\u0131n\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7 kat\u0131na ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z karpuzdan can havliyle \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015f dilim kesiyorum. Ka\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr karpuz yeme\u011fi unutmu\u015ftum hayret! Yaz\u0131n bay\u0131lt\u0131c\u0131 s\u0131caklar\u0131na so\u011fuk du\u015f ve buz gibi karpuz olmasa nas\u0131l dayanabilirdim\u2026ill\u00e2 da karpuz\u2026Efenim, o kadar para verdik, dolmu\u015f bekleyemedim, taksi tuttum, taksicinin f\u0131rsat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6z yummad\u0131m taksimetrede hakk\u0131m olan\u0131 geri ald\u0131m. Ter kan i\u00e7inde eve geldim. E\u015fimin tasviriyle: d\u0131\u015f\u0131 modern g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcml\u00fc, i\u00e7i \u00e7ar\u015famba pazar\u0131na benzeyen buzdolab\u0131m\u0131n birka\u00e7 saat so\u011futmas\u0131n\u0131 bekledi\u011fim bu hayat kurtaran meyvenin ziyan olmas\u0131na g\u00f6nl\u00fcm de c\u00fczdan\u0131m da raz\u0131 olmaz. Valla mis gibi kocaman \u00fc\u00e7 dilimi moda tabirle \u201cg\u00f6md\u00fcm\u201d. Tabakta kalan karpuzu da kara g\u00f6zl\u00fcme ay\u0131rd\u0131m. E\u015fim karpuz yemek istemedi\u011fini s\u00f6yleyince kalan\u0131 da kendime ay\u0131rd\u0131m memnuniyetle. Mevzubahis karpuz olunca teklif var, \u0131srar yok \u015fekerim\u2026<\/p>\n
Yaz mevsiminin gidi\u015fi g\u00f6nl\u00fcmde bir burukluk, bir yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k b\u0131rak\u0131r. G\u00fcne\u015f, deniz, kum muhabbetine dayanan bir \u00f6zlem var, tamam kabul ediyorum da yaz bitince karpuz da kayboluyor ortadan. B\u00fcy\u00fck marketlerde her mevsim her meyveyi buluyoruz lakin o do\u011fal koku ve lezzet yok. Hem yaz\u0131n a\u015f ekmek derdimiz de olmuyor. Ac\u0131k\u0131nca, kes iki dilim karpuz, yan\u0131na kibrit kutusu kadar peynir -fazlas\u0131 keseye zarar- otur g\u00fczelce ye\u2026<\/p>\n
\u00c7ocukken, karpuz \u00e7ekirdekleri kocaman kocaman olurdu. Karpuzu karde\u015fimle \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcze ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za d\u00f6kmemeye gayret ederek yedi\u011fimizi sonra da karpuzun devasa \u00e7ekirdeklerini itinayla se\u00e7erek bir kenara ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. Tabii ki atmak i\u00e7in de\u011fil. \u00c7ekirdekleri, tarihi ge\u00e7mi\u015f, solmu\u015f bir gazete sayfas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde kurutup ak\u015famlar\u0131 \u00e7ay\u0131n yan\u0131nda yemek ya da sokakta oynarken elimizde \u00e7itlemek i\u00e7in\u2026Erzurum\u2019un kuru s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131nda sabaha kadar kuruyan karpuz \u00e7ekirdeklerini gider gelir elimle yoklar, yar\u0131n sokakta yiyecek olman\u0131n sevinciyle d\u00f6rt k\u00f6\u015fe olurdum. Bir g\u00fcn a\u011flamaktan g\u00f6zlerimin k\u0131zard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve \u015fi\u015fti\u011fini an\u0131ms\u0131yorum. Sebebini tahmin bile edemezsiniz. Annem kurutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z karpuz \u00e7ekirdeklerini \u201c\u00e7\u00f6p\u201d zannedip gazeteyle birlikte tortop edip soka\u011f\u0131n sinek kaynayan \u00e7\u00f6p bidonuna atm\u0131\u015f. Karpuz \u00e7ekirdeklerini yerinde g\u00f6remeyince a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 Pavorotti gibi a\u00e7\u0131p en c\u0131rtlak sesimle canh\u0131ra\u015f bir tav\u0131rla a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 nas\u0131l unuturum. Zavall\u0131 annem beni susturabilmek i\u00e7in o kadar dil d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f hatta birka\u00e7 kom\u015fu yan\u0131m\u0131za gelip g\u00fcya beni susturacak ya: \u201ce\u015fek kadar k\u0131zs\u0131n sus, ne ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p duruyorsun, annen a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 burnunu k\u0131rs\u0131n da g\u00f6r\u2026\u201d diyerek hem beni rencide etmi\u015f hem de annemin bana \u015fiddet uygulamas\u0131 i\u00e7in laf s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Zaten o zamanlar kom\u015fu teyzeler kendi \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6vd\u00fckleri yetmiyormu\u015f gibi el \u00e2lemin \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 da a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lamaya bay\u0131l\u0131yordu. Evet biraz da olsa hakl\u0131yd\u0131. Ben incir \u00e7ekirde\u011fini doldurmayacak bir mevzu \u201ckarpuz \u00e7ekirdekleri i\u00e7in\u201d a\u011fl\u0131yordum. Asl\u0131nda a\u011flama nedenim emek verip ay\u0131klad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7ekirdeklerin ak\u015famki hayallerime i\u015ftirak edemeyecek olmas\u0131yd\u0131. \u00c7ocuklu\u011fumda kurdu\u011fum ucube hay\u00e2lin belki de ait oldu\u011fu yer \u00e7\u00f6p bidonu idi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o zamanlar eve \u00e7ekirdek ya da \u00e7erez almak l\u00fckst\u00fc. Eve laz\u0131m olan o kadar erzak varken bana ya da bize kuru yemi\u015f almalar\u0131n\u0131 beklemiyorduk zaten\u2026<\/p>\n
Lafazan kom\u015fular\u0131m\u0131n ars\u0131z ot gibi her yerden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmek a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 beni bazen s\u0131kar. Okuldan gelmi\u015fim, sekiz saat ders, kurs\u2026 Anam dinim a\u011flam\u0131\u015f. Kom\u015fum, ge\u00e7en hafta anlatt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 yineleyip lojman\u0131n kerpi\u00e7 duvar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde nefes almadan konu\u015furken, ben yalandan dinliyormu\u015f gibi yap\u0131p yar\u0131nki i\u015f kombinimi planl\u0131yordum. Kad\u0131na \u201ci\u00e7eriye de buyurun\u201d diyemiyorum \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc: t\u00fcten k\u00f6m\u00fcr sobas\u0131ndan a\u015fkarlanm\u0131\u015f<\/em> perdelerimi g\u00f6r\u00fcrse b\u00fct\u00fcn mahalleye yayar valla. Kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde laflad\u0131k biraz. Konu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131, \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan kad\u0131nlara ac\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, bizim birer zavall\u0131 oldu\u011fumuzu, biz i\u015fe giderken onun yatakta keyifle uyudu\u011funu anlatarak s\u00fcrd\u00fcrmeye kararl\u0131yd\u0131. Kendi paras\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, istedi\u011fi elbiseyi almak i\u00e7in kocas\u0131na \u00e7ekti\u011fi ya\u011flardan, \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131-pazar dola\u015fmak isteyip elinde har\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in \u015fehir merkezine gidemedi\u011finden bahsetti\u011fi g\u00fcnleri unutmu\u015f oldu\u011fumu zannederek ahk\u00e2m kesmeye devam ediyordu. Dinlemi\u015f gibi yap\u0131p arada saatime bak\u0131yordum. Neyse ki abdestli namazl\u0131 kom\u015fum ezan sesini duyunca: \u201cgidim g\u0131lim vah\u0131t ge\u00e7mesin\u201d<\/em> deyip s\u00f6zlerine \u00fc\u00e7 nokta koyarak tebess\u00fcm etti ve evine do\u011fru yola koyuldu. Bense m\u00fcstehzi bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyle m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131m: \u201cDur ya nereye gidiyorsun, daha KARPUZ kesecektik!\u201d<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u0130n\u015faat\u0131n intihara s\u00fcr\u00fckleyen sesine kanepede uyuyan e\u015fimin vah\u015fi yarat\u0131klar\u0131n homurtusunu g\u00f6lgede b\u0131rakan horlamas\u0131 da…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":35,"featured_media":2374,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_uag_custom_page_level_css":"","ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[16],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[212],"class_list":["post-2373","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-hikaye"],"yoast_head":"\n