R\u0131ht\u0131mlar\u0131 a\u015f\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131yorum, kar\u0131\u015f kar\u0131\u015f… Bir ipucu, bir seda, bir \u00f6zlem arar\u0131m, senden yana… Denizlerde kanat \u00e7\u0131rpan mart\u0131lardan, denizin dibindeki reng\u00e2renk bal\u0131klardan, bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131 kay\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan… Her kesten… Her \u015feyden… Sorup soru\u015fturmaktay\u0131m izin s\u0131ra. Bilen yok; bug\u00fcn de elde avu\u00e7ta var, s\u0131f\u0131r. S\u0131f\u0131rlar\u0131 t\u00fcketiyorum, bu ara-da bol bol… Ellerim yorgun, g\u00f6zlerim uyu\u015fuk… Tam buldum bulaca\u011f\u0131m derken bir iz; hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla boynu b\u00fck\u00fck d\u00f6n\u00fcyorum geri… Sab\u0131r da\u011flar\u0131n\u0131 eritiyorum sayende… G\u00fcn be g\u00fcn… Umudum h\u00e2l\u00e2 var; yitirmedim… Ancak her ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn azal\u0131yor… Bir iz b\u0131raksayd\u0131n da seni bulmama yarayacak, olmaz m\u0131yd\u0131? B\u00ee-\u00e7are avare avare doland\u0131rmaktan zevk mi al\u0131yorsun? Yoksa \u00e7ok yak\u0131n\u0131mdas\u0131n ve \u00e7aresizli\u011fimi mi izliyorsun?<\/p>\n
Oysaki ben;<\/p>\n
Karanl\u0131klara dalan \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsledim<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n “Sen” diye<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Seher vakti uzatt\u0131m ellerimi g\u00fcne\u015fe<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n I\u015f\u0131k huzmesi sararken, v\u00fccudumu <\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Hayaller kurdum <\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n “Sen” diye…<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Bulutlardan havalanarak yery\u00fcz\u00fcne <\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Pike yapan damlalara<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Kucak a\u00e7t\u0131m sevgiyle <\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n “Sen” diye<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Havuz dolusu yorgunluk, bedenime \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fken<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Say\u0131klad\u0131m<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n “Sen” diye…<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Mecnun gibi d\u00fc\u015ferim yollara, arar\u0131m seni… Da\u011flar\u0131 a\u015far\u0131m Ferhat gibi… Cefa \u00e7ekerim her dem, ac\u0131lar ba\u011fr\u0131m\u0131 yakar, seni bulamam diye… Bazen sessizce esen r\u00fczg\u00e2rdan, bazen g\u00f6k g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcnden sar-kan \u015fim\u015feklerden, bazen karda a\u00e7an kar-delenden, bazen goncaya duran g\u00fcllerden sorar\u0131m seni…<\/p>\n Ya g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeseydin g\u00f6zlerime ya s\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fcrme beni pe\u015finden… Bak ne hal-deyim, anla beni…<\/p>\n Sevgimi ba\u011fr\u0131ma bast\u0131m; ta\u015f. Ta\u015ftan duygular.<\/p>\n Karanl\u0131klara dalan \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsledim <\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n “Sen” diye<\/em><\/strong>…<\/p>\n Sen olmay\u0131nca, her taraf karanl\u0131k. Kapkaranl\u0131k d\u00fcnyam… Bu karanl\u0131k d\u00fcnyama g\u00fcne\u015f olup do\u011f, ne olursun. Ayd\u0131nlat, k\u00f6relen kalbime mesaj g\u00f6t\u00fcren g\u00f6zlerimi…<\/p>\n B\u0131rakma beni karanl\u0131kta; gel g\u00f6r beni…<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Ayak izlerin bir g\u00f6lge gibi d\u00fc\u015fer, ellerime<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Umutlar\u0131m, sevin\u00e7lerim<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Kara bir tabloya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr hayallerimin orta yerinde<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Zaman kanatlan\u0131p yelken a\u00e7ar<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Badireler mek\u00e2n tutar ci\u011ferpare semalarda<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Ayaklan\u0131r<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Menek\u015fe bah\u00e7esinde dikenler<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Kara pen\u00e7e t\u00fcts\u00fc, zalimlik destan<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Yazg\u0131 ikram edilirken limonlu \u00e7ayla<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Yine de beklerim seni<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Efsunlanm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zlerimle…<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" R\u0131ht\u0131mlar\u0131 a\u015f\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131yorum, kar\u0131\u015f kar\u0131\u015f… Bir ipucu, bir seda, bir \u00f6zlem arar\u0131m, senden yana… Denizlerde kanat…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":29,"featured_media":2345,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_uag_custom_page_level_css":"","ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[100],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[200],"class_list":["post-2344","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-deneme"],"yoast_head":"\n